the next chapter

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I have been thinking about writing a post like this for a long time. I can’t exactly pinpoint when my feelings about this blog changed, but they have. A lot of shit went down in 2013, I mean, a lot. I changed jobs, my boyfriend changed jobs, I was actually ill the entire year (and when I think about that, it makes me want to cry), I had open heart surgery #2, and I struggled to keep up with this blog.

I used to love blogging, and spending my weekends dedicated to making content for you all, but ever since July (when I had my chest sawed open) my priorities have definitely changed. I am not a girl who can stay up all night working on blog things. I cannot burn the midnight oil to make a collage. I go to bed before 10pm. And I’m still not fully recovered from my surgery.

The emotional trauma of the surgery still haunts me, and here we are, 6 months later and I’m not even recovered yet. That in and of itself, is plenty for me to deal with and is obviously stressful. The thought of blogging and stressing about making sure I comment on enough blogs, post to Instagram x times daily, etc. makes me want to sit down and cry. Trust me, I’m not telling you this to be dramatic or to drum up any sympathy, at all. I want you all to understand. It’s taken me nearly 30 years to know when enough is enough.

Maybe I’ll blog again. Perhaps I’ll move strictly to vlogging because I really do love that, and I think you all do as well (I could be wrong here, so let me know). I might come back as a vlogging food blog, who knows!? But for right now, what’s best for me, my health and my happiness is to step away from this blog. I didn’t make this decision rashly, I cried a lot (crazy, I know) over this decision and that’s how I knew it was time. Blogging shouldn’t feel like an obligation and I shouldn’t tie my self-worth up in my blog stats (WTF). I have a full-time job that I actually love, an apartment that is mostly clean, a family that loves me, and an amazing boyfriend and right now, that’s all I need.

What I’m not doing? Disappearing from the internet completely because well, I’m not a crazy person! You can follow along in my day-to-day on pinterest, instagram and twitter if you’d like.

bee venom mask

Bee venom? On your face!? Yes. Sounds crazy, right? I thought so too. But when the lovely folks at Abeeco approached me to try their product, I obviously was into it. If this gets rid of wrinkles like Botox, sign me the f up. Amiright?

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First take, I loved the ingredient list. I could actually read it, guys. It says to test a small patch before you go ahead and slather it on. So I did that. It is worth noting here that if you are allergic to bees, you clearly shouldn’t use this product.

After I determined that I wouldn’t have to use my epi-pen, I proceeded to slather this over my face. The first time I used it, I did so as a mask: massaging gently, apply a generous layer to your face and neck twice daily and leave for 20 minutes.  Wash off. I noticed that my skin was super moisturized (huge plus during the winter), wasn’t greasy (another huge win) and it seemed more plump. The next use was as a moisturizer.

I really, really like this mask as an addition to my skin-care routine. It’s really moisturizing and oddly is super matte, which is great because nothing is worse than your skin being an oil-slick. That is not cute.

Questions? Comments? Let me know!

happy friday!

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The statement above could not be truer if I wrote it myself. This weekend I hope to catch up on a little R & R and perhaps film some vlogs, do some cleaning, make some treats and mostly sleep. It’s supposed to be a frozen winter tundra here soooooo I don’t know about you, but I don’t wanna go outside. If you’re bored today, or tomorrow or anytime, you can watch me act! How fun is that? And it rhymed, so sublime. Okay, I’m done now. Happy Friday, everyone!

holiday gift guide: for me

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marled top // sequin skirt // sunglasses // bag // blouse // flats // wool bomber jacket // leather leggings

Did you think I would do gift guides and not one for myself? Get out of town. There are a few ridiculous things on this list but isn’t that the point of making one? That’s what I thought. But there are also some good ideas on here for that person who is the hardest to shop for ever. I think I might be this person. Might. I’ve also included more ideas below. And since it’s freezing here, these sneakers are amazing and any gal would love to have them. Including myself.

Don’t forget to go watch me act (or try to) in today’s episode of Pinched!

ALSO…today is my Mom’s birthday, guys! Happy Birthday, Mom. You don’t look a day over 35.

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It’s a throwback Thursday! Also, I have no idea who took this picture but I know they did an awful job. Not everyone was looking in the same place, my grandpa’s head got cut off, I’m trying to steal my grandma’s drink. Ridiculous. Obviously my mom is not the woman who I am sitting on (so we’re all clear).